what life give to me ? is that a happy of laughter in every moment or a teardrops of solitary in every moment ? actually it gave me both of them . but i still enjoy what i've been through now as i stuck in my own ways to fight for my right and my feeling . haha . you know life is not so easy and we cant always choose the perfect ways to be . so the better ways to be are just be yourself so that you will not drowning in your OWN decision . there are many smart brighter mind people right now . we can find them anywhere in this big lands . but are they smart in making a decision ? its okay because no one knows weather the decision that they had made will bring a joy into their lives or get them into a mess situation .
okay N . i give you a very stupid birthday present . believe me it was not my first plan but i have to solve the problem as soon as i can because i cant stand in this horrible situation anymore . i cant take this any longer :'( letting you go doesnt meant i will accept another one easily . trust me it will not happening . i will not hurt you for once again . i will not ask for apologize as long as u think i am concern and not so cruel . i know it is so hard for you to forget about me but please try and find another girl . im not suitable for a kind man like you . i know you hate me but untill when you want to keep hating me ? unforgiven right ? its okay i understand because it is all my fault :'( i ask for your help but you just treat me like a stranger . you didnt help in finding my self back . you forgive me and just go away . there no point in hoping on you . i am so sorry to say that . but do you know that i really need you in my life ? you just give up and go away without winning me back and now i feel so hopeless . i swear N , this is my last time I write about you BECAUSE there is no more fun story to write about in the next . i let everything go eventhough i will be in pain . i deserve that so i will take it as a lesson for me .
when i die , i want you to know everything behind all this . you dont have to worry because i have forgive you N :)
I will never forget about you and what we have been through . I SWEAR :)
when i feeling bored i will :
1.writing
2.eat like there is no tomorrow for me :)
3.chill out with my BFF
4.flashback all my memory and i will cry :)
5.sleepppp ;)
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